Tuesday, 20 June 2017

January 2016 complaint



Hi,
I have attached the outline of the problem I’m having with the police and the NHS and was wondering if you could help me with legal advice.
I have a blog, which can be found here:  http://mxenaj.blogspot.co.uk/p/blog-page.html
It details the nature of the complaint.  However it is more like a book so it’s rather long.  The crux of the legal matter is in chapter 10 and 11.  I have therefore attached something smaller.
The problem is basically – an intentional misdiagnosis that has destroyed my life and a victim of hacking amongst other things that are apparently classed as ‘delusional’.
I hope you can find the time to read the attached and advise me on my legal rights – as I appear to have none.
Thank you
Michelle Johnstone




Dear Sir/Madam
I was wondering if you could help me with the problems that I’ve been having with the NHS and Police. 
In January 2016 I was arrested by four officers at my house at approx 7am-ish in the morning.  I was literally pounced on, brutally manhandled, cuffed as soon as I opened the door.  I had to shout for them to lock the back door.  I was arrested for ‘suspicion of assault’ – of which no assault has ever taken place nor has any argument about ‘free food’.
On the way to the Hatfield Police Station, the officers in the car began talking about movies (Star Wars and Bradley Cooper) – a conversation I did not partake in.  I did not say anything to the police as they had just arrested me in the most horrific way.  I was not allowed a lawyer.  Upon arrival at the desk of Hatfield Station the officer (PC Mann) waved his arm around and said “She’s saying some outlandish things” and thus I was ‘interviewed’.  A lady (who was very intimidating) asked me about my daughter and I had said that I had not spoken to her since we fell out and she went to her dads approx 4/5 years ago.   I seen my ex mother in law at Sainsbury’s (Apsley Lock, Hemel Hempstead) and said to her “Do you understand the amount of unnecessary stress you and your family have put me through for the past 20 years”, she shrugged it off and replied “No, no – I’ll have you arrested for assault” and that was the whole ‘incident’.  Nothing else happened.  No ‘assault’ has ever taken place.  Another  of the ‘interviewers’ said “Why didn’t you just not say anything” as he walked out of the police cell as I was not asked to go to an ‘interview’ room that has been otherwise suggested.  I was sectioned/detained and sent to a psychiatric unit for what appeared to be no apparent reason.
I was in a state of shock and having sat at Kingfisher Psychiatric Unit is a very intimidating, degrading experience – no one talks to you, everything you say is just “yeah, okay” and if the staff talk to you it’s in a very patronising manner.  For example I was sitting in the room with the Consultant Burnett and she said “Some people are concerned about your mental health”, “Like who?” I replied as I have not spoken to anyone for approx the past 5 years and have been intentionally isolated.  I asked to have a tribunal and spoke to a solicitor. 
I told the solicitor about my blog, it’s a book/victim impact statement about my life, when I found out that the guy that murdered my brother (in NZ) had committed a long list of offenses and had undercover cops at a wedding to ‘bust’ him.   Attempting to complete a victim impact statement to give to the Parole Board in NZ was a horrendous experience as it forces you to relive past events again.  That was intercepted and plagiarised and I was subject to horrific abuse, stalked and intimidated - of which evidence can be provided.
In Dunedin (NZ), 1990 my brother was murdered by skinheads.  The convicted murderer wrote a note to another skinhead stating that ‘he would kill him’, they’d planned it and it was premeditated.  The murderer got 10 years which was considered ‘life’.   They turned up at my brother’s funeral just to make sure he was dead.  He was murdered at 88 Dundas Street, Dunedin, New Zealand.
I dreamt about my brother’s death – it’s a fact – I can’t change that – however for some strange reason that’s been taken and used against me as a means to intimidate me and suggest that my brother’s death is a fabrication.
Preparing some kind of victim impact statement in order to keep my brothers murderer in prison was difficult due to the profession that I was in, it was also extremely difficult without any support and getting bullied & intimidated.  At the time of attempting to write the victim impact statement my daughter was 16, I was 16 when my brother was murdered – it was also accompanied with added stress from the very controlling, spiteful and nasty ex-family.  The tension eventually caused a huge argument with my daughter which resulted in me slapping her and her going to her dads.  I was an extra in the TV/Film industry working and meeting directors, actors, world famous celebrities.  I have socialised with them and worked with them.   Obviously with being out of New Zealand for a long time the method of communication is via the internet and also with me being on the other side of the world was seen as an opportunity to take advantage.  I was treated appallingly by the NZ government and my internet was hacked into and I became ‘blocked’ – of which evidence can be provided.

In the Police section (04/01/2016), it states:
This 41 year old divorced Caucasian lady originally from New Zealand.  She was arrested for alleged assault on her ex mother in law in Sainsburys.  It is reported that she feels there is a conspiracy against her concerning abuse.  The murder of her brother, talk of Putin and Obama planes dropping out of sky.  It seems she has been isolated from family and medical care for some time.  Not known to mental health services.  At interview she was an articulate lady who despite superficial appropriate conversation soon became apparent that she is thought disorder and paranoid delusions about politicians doctors.  She said they don’t take her allegations seriously concerning massacres black magic.  She had her victim impact statement stolen by a Hollywood actor and turned into an event.  She said her identity had been stolen and she no longer exists (under occupation she put hologram).  She said she had clairvoyant power different to paranoid schizophrenia.  She is a disturbed lady, she admits cannibas use, her psychosis may be long standing it needs assessment as an inpatient she has apparently assaulted in the community.  She refuses voluntary admission.
Signed:  Tidy.

At no point did I ever mention planes falling out of the sky, clairvoyants, paranoid schizophrenia.  No assault has ever taken place.  There is no ‘conspiracy’ – I was abused, it is fact not ‘delusional’.  I have been illegally spied on and the police have known about it for several years, I have been bullied offline as well as online.  I did not mention Putin or Obama or say anything about ‘black magic’.  I did not say that my victim impact statement was stolen by a Hollywood actor and turned into an event.  My brother’s death and a massacre is an ‘event’ so what ‘event’ are they referring to.  I was honest -  I told them I smoked the occasional marijuana ‘joint’ however I am not a ‘full on’ smoker and am a ‘light user’ however this is an excuse to say you have psychosis or a psychotic episode
Planes falling out of the sky and Putin & Obama flying over the Star Wars set is something I would find very difficult saying with a straight face.   As I have said, I am a victim of seriously extreme violent crime, was an extra, and ‘black magic’ - well they must be referring to media hacking, media intrusion and the reason why the leveson inquiry should be reinstated.  As well as the incidents with MH370 and MH17.  I have stated to the police that I am a victim of hacking, the Sun newspaper and the Dailymail hacked into my pc which wasn’t taken seriously and treated as a joke. 
Meanwhile, the tribunal at the psychiatric unit, no one spoke to me, if I did speak to someone it’d be very patronising and everything you say is considered to be ‘delusional’  and/or they would fabricate what was said or pull something from out of thin air:
Reason for admission at the tribunal on the report:
Ms Johnstone was admitted following being arrested by the police for assaulting her ex mother in law.  During the arrest the police became concerned regarding her mental health and a mental health act assessment was requested.
Ms Johnstone stated that she verbally confronted her ex mother in law and then left.  On admission ms Johnstone reported that she encountered her ex mother in law in Sainsbury’s  and stated that she had been malicious, unpleasant and asked Ms Johnstone why she was taking free food.  Ms Johnstone stated that she snapped in response to this and was then arrested.
On admission when asked about her problems she voiced a number of apparently bizarre beliefs including her conviction that her brother had been killed by Nazi’s in the 1990’s (though she later stated that he had been killed by ‘skinheads’).  She stated that there had been a ‘cascade of murders’ following this by the same people and that they had gang raped her and then massacred people in New Zealand which was why she stated she had left the country.
She then spoke about her belief that she had been going to act in a movie about her and her brother but presidents Putin and Obama flew over to the Star Wars set stole the idea and tried to change it so it was about ‘gay people’.
She spoke about celebrities being cruel to her and her belief that she was clairvoyant.
On her first assessment on the ward she requested that we look at the blog she had written for more details about the problems she had been dealing with: mxenaj.blogspot.co.uk

No, no, no and no.
No assault has ever taken place.   No ‘argument’ about ‘free food’ has ever taken place.
It felt and feels as if I need a witness when talking to them.
My brother was murdered at 88 Dundas Street, Dunedin.  It it a fact.  How very dare you question my life.  I categorically DO NOT call a massacre ‘a cascade of murders’.  Nor did I say anything about the massacre that happened in Aramoana to the consultants, I spoke of it to my solicitor only because it was mentioned in the ‘consultant’ notes for the tribunal.  I did not mention anything about ‘acting in movies’ or the movie business, I did say that there is a movie about the real life massacre that happened in Aramoana, NZ, 1990 – which is again – googleable.   I did not mention anything about Star Wars sets or Putin and Obama flying over it.  I did not mention anything about gay people either.  I was an extra.  Also there are other issues to take into consideration when working in such an environment such as marketing and PR.
So I found myself sat in front of psychiatrists who insist I never had a brother and he was never murdered, my life is a fabrication, doctoring what was said and gathering information from ‘unknown’ sources.
I wrote a book, I’m quite proud of that.  No one has sat down with me to discuss it.
I found myself enclosed in a situation where I had to prove who I am, having to defend myself for what other people have done to me, listening to absolute bollocks in consultant’s rooms – people that lack the ability to be straight with you and have lost the ability to listen and be on the side of the victim.  I have been intentionally isolated both online and offline for several years.  I seemed to be repeating “No, I didn’t say that, didn’t say that, didn’t say that”.
After the tribunal I was sent to Albany Lodge where they found it funny regarding the situation with my brother.  Some nurses said “when you start talking to her you realise everyone needs sectioned” to others taking the absolute piss and insisting you leave the room so the NHS nurse can pray to Allah as well as be very intimidating/patronising by calling me ‘Michelle Obama’ in a very perverted manner.  I also had a nurse come into the room and jokingly ask “Where’s your brother”.   A nurse asked me about my brother so I said to her she could just google it, surprisingly – she did but then she looked at the internet report and looked back at me and laughed and joked that our surnames are different – therefore – delusional.
I was completely traumatised.  Traumatised to the point of not being able to speak to anyone.  My life – had stopped, thanks to the Police and the NHS.  How on earth does one ‘carry on’ after such a horrendous heinously evil experience? 
All they wanted to do was call me ‘delusional’ and force an injection in my buttocks.

When I was going through the crux of the turmoil and people referring to it as ‘just a story’ and attempting to explain that when something bad happens it’s like something out of a movie – but not, some actors took that an excuse to make everything about themselves while others – having taken advantage of the victim and it would be so unimaginably evil to learn that celebrities, media, policitians etc have in fact taken advantage of a victim to improve their PR while mocking the victim at the same time – is – inconceivable.   

This was the communications sent via email from the parole board:




Meanwhile the daily mail deleted all my posts:

I got deleted from the internet (i posted one post)
My account was blocked, no explanation.

A fake account, not made by me, using my email address – over the other side of the world in NZ.


In the Sun newspaper there was an interview from a guy called Gordon Smart who interviewed Alice Cooper.  Alice Cooper was in the pirates movie where a bunch of extras were to play groupies.
Subsequently that year Scotland decided to have a vote for independence and Gerard Butler was photographed with Bradley Cooper and Alex Salmond at the tennis. 
This is me when I was an extra on Pirates:


This is from an Otago daily times reporter who reported the death/murder of my brother whom also mocked me via twitter and later blocked me.  He also wrote an article about the embarrassing lack of response to the Nazi’s in New Zealand, which is googlable.

Meanwhile on the sensible sentencing website it says:


From Sensible Sentencing, an organisation that strives to get tougher sentences for criminals – and improve the treatment of victims




I was sent the offenders history, however due to ‘human error’ the following convictions were seemingly ignored and a list of offenses was sent to me via email:


Meanwhile, the media decided ‘trouncing’ was a good word to use:










And others thought it was a good reason to debate, the death of my brother, gun control etc etc



I also was subject to bullying:





I used to be called Shelley when I was younger which is short for Michelle.









They failed to respond to me and it turned into ‘banter’.  My brothers death turned into a debate.



And they were definitely not students:  (someone that knows someone that knows someone)


Meanwhile, I’m in the UK, not left the country


Gemma Dowler followed me on twitter, I have not met her however fully appreciate that the media are capable of being totally evil and can relate to the experience she went through – as well as being a victim and working within the tv/film industry.  With the Dowler family in relation to Leveson, media intrusion and rebuilding your life afterwards, it’s slightly different because – nearly – everyone knows who you are so you don’t have to explain however with me being on the other side of the world and getting called ‘delusional’, fobbed off and laughed at – is quite something else.







This is me on Mars (John Carter of Mars movie)

 ‘88’ was used for marketing as unbeknown to a lot of people they don’t really know what the number signifies.




This is my daughter’s makeup, having not approved of it quite simply when mum is going through a tough time why instigate to provoke a negative reaction.  Also my daughter wearing Mexican makeup.  She also scribbled my brothers name on the wall in her bedroom.




On social media:


Upon writing my victim impact statement, others found it amusing to take advantage.  Calum best was one of many who decided to play a game.  Lindsay Lohan was pictured with Max George and George Best being the dad of Calum Best, was also an excuse to make everything about themselves whilst taking advantage of, using and abusing the victim.  George Trounson is the name of the convicted murderer who beat my brother to death.


So marketing & PR people followed me, the PR ‘fixer-upperer’

Myself and calum best

Also at the same time when I was working on the Danny Boyle movie called Trance, we were joking about who was going to win the rugby which somehow seemed to be an excuse to take advantage.  I was sitting in the makeup chair of Mr Selfridge and the makeup lady said, talking about death that ‘they all turn into grains of sand’.  I’m not religious however I’m not an atheist either.  Danny Boyle was pictured in the media:



It was also around the same time of the Olympics and when Danny Boyle presented the NHS as part of the opening ceremony.  They also performed another version of Skyfall and coincidentally the Bond movie after Skyfall was set in Mexico and featured the celebration of the dead


Calum Best at a point when I was writing my victim impact statement, relative to Pirates with the ‘loose lips sink ships’  tshirt.

The wife of my ex husband stalking my linkedin page

A duplicate twitter account has been made and anything I post goes straight to the United States and Germany.


The journalist who also wrote about the embarrassing lack of response to the Nazi’s in NZ – mocking the victims sister online and also interrupted by an internet stalker whom is a fan of the masochist of Norway.  Meanwhile the vast majority of responses were such as this:




PR Fixer-upperer, no explanation required.

This is my brothers school leaving certificate




And this is an image of Putin not long after I’d found a phone in a toilet whilst working on an ad, coincidentally.  The situation turned into something rather extraordinary.  An extraordinary ‘coincedence’ involving media, social media and the internet.  After being discarded by the government of my home country, getting mocked and abused I was still working as an extra.  I was asked by a colleague “which is worse?  Saying you’re gunna kill it or that’s so gay” Working in that environment however you never know who you meet and of course the history of my brother’s death seemed to be cause for debate.
My brother’s murderer over in New Zealand went on the run and it wasn’t announced until my birthday which is in fact very spiteful:



The government refused to accept any responsibility:



No explanation has been offered from the NZ Parole Board etc etc:


This was also around the same time that I’d not long won a complimentary trip to Monaco for the Grand Prix.  I took a friend and it was an actor who had to be removed by the men on the yacht.  Turned out to be Ray Winstone.  At first I wasn’t sure however soon became apparent.


I also wrote a book/victim impact statement which has been pillaged; it also involved looking at numerology and the importance of numbers.  87 for example was the score between the All Blacks and France during the Rugby World Cup, 87 is the year of my brothers school leaving certificate.  That year a letter from Robert the Bruce was uncovered before the battle of Bannockburn, the page   number was 87.  Simon Cowell also had an 87th birthday.  Coincidence.  I think not.



When writing about events that are personal and reliving the trauma of a very violent past -  it would be unthinkable for anyone to interfere during that grieving process however that’s exactly what they’ve done.


Blocked by the NZ government and Helen Clark who was aiming to be the next UN secretary General.  It became dirty politics.



It was also around the time Ed Miliband launched a government campaign in relation to magic balls:
The Mars landing was also happening around the same time and Mars was twinned with Scotland.
I also received a random text message telling me that I don’t exist, very stalkery:






And then I get arrested for an assault that never happened, sectioned and locked up.

While I was sectioned I complained about my hips and knees for 28 days, I was told to take a paracetamol and was fobbed off.  This is what my hips and knees looked like after I left hospital:










I was completely traumatised by the whole experience.  Also in a state of shock where it was forced on me to defend myself for what other people have done to me, and also saying over again “I didn’t say that” - also being in a situation where you have to prove who you are and the staff behaved in such a manner that is derogatory and degrading.  What I have said is what has happened to me is a crime and I have been intentionally screwed over.

I could not talk to anyone for over 6 months - it has been extremely traumatic and to have just laughed off and called a fabrication & delusional is just beyond comprehension.  They said that I lack insight into my mental health problem – they failed to listen as I have repeatedly said that I have PTSD however the consultants refuse to accept this and again – fob it off as it seems far more easier to call a victim delusional and fabricate what was said on psychiatric reports.  It was then that I was evicted and was subsequently sectioned again.  Again, the same thing as before – not PTSD, delusional and the fictional argument about ‘free food’ kept reoccurring.  There has *never* been any argument about ‘free food’ nor did any assault happen.  I have been hacked into.  I am in fact – a victim – however getting/got treated worse than a criminal.  I had not been treated for shock, stress or anxiety but rather contend with the flippant attitude towards me and my life – which they insisted was a fabrication and delusional.

The report from Aston Ward Admission Summary & Discharge Care plan (1), most of which is written is – bullshit. 
It states that I refused to engage however the consultants refused to listen and I am not delusional – my brother and the events that occurred in 1990 – are not fictional, having spent a very traumatic month inside a psychiatric unit having to explain yourself when you didn’t say anything about yourself and anything you do say is considered to be delusional.  It was detrimental to my health.  How on earth do you have a conversation with anyone after that?  It also states that she presented with thought disorder and was expressing paranoid and persecutory delusional beliefs.  It’s fact, I have kept evidence of the abuse that I have received.  My bothers murder turned into a debate and if you want to call abuse persecutory beliefs – you are stuck in front of psychiatrists who insist you never had a brother and he was never murdered and ‘sex’ up psychiatric reports, write things that were never said and patronise the service user.
The mental State on Admission:
Bullshit.  Points: no ‘flights of ideas’, yes I am a victim of extremism and yes I have been ostricised.  Yes I have suffered police brutality and I have stated that I received a text telling me that I don’t exist.  I have PTSD, been through an extremely traumatic time in 1990 that has been amplified by the treatment that I have received over the duration of approximately the past five years .  I have stated that they were skinheads and I have said that I have written about my life.  I did not make any accusations that David Cameron, Ed Miliband, UKIP, and John Key (PM of NZ) plaigurised it.  I stated I dreamt about my brothers death – this seemed to be an excuse to pass it off as fictional.  I mentioned the massacre – which what is written is again incorrect – it happened in the 1990’s not the 1980’s as suggested.  I told them about the gang rape incident again – they suggested was fictional.
Treatment & progress:
It states that I presented the same delusional beliefs and was hostile and paranoid about the staff on the ward.  Facts don’t change whatever they inject me with as they refuse to listen and make shit up.  I was sectioned under 3 as I was ‘vulnerable’, I attempted to show the lady who put me on a section 3 the abuse that I had received on social media and she said “I don’t want to look at that it’s too disturbing for me”.  It was very difficult to have an intelligent conversation with individuals and professionals who pass you off as being delusional and be very patronising and flippant while seemingly misuse the term ‘delusional’ and ‘psychotic’.
It also states that hardly any improvement was noted in my ‘mental state’ and therefore they changed the medication and increased it.  Still saying the same thing – so ‘Persistent Delusional Disorder’ – increasing the medication, ‘sexing’ up psychiatric reports is falsifying documents until she stops saying the same thing. ?  It states that I have been adamant that I have PTSD however the consultants refuse to listen.  Facts don’t change – whatever they inject me with.
It is a misdiagnosis – which has destroyed my life however it has been intentionally destroyed.
It states on paper 2 that ‘Michelle has an established diagnosis of persistent delusional disorder’  - facts don’t change.  It also states other bullshit such as ‘Milley Dawler hacked into my phone, showed picture of Princess Diana and a New Zealand prime minister whom she blamed for Diana’s murder and other points of delusional reference’.  No.  What bullshit.  How on earth can you have an intelligent conversation with someone when what is written is a total fabrication.
I had a tribunal while on the section 3 at Aston Ward.  It made me laugh when I seen what was written, the solicitor only wanted to see a picture of me dressed as an extra on Pirates of the Caribbean as – people find it difficult to comprehend who I’ve met.  I had an interview prior to the tribunal by a woman who appeared not to understand English and confuse matters.  When in the tribunal room one of the judges asked me about my brother and our upbringing and I told him and it was a basic ‘well, yeah – why do they not believe you’ type thing.  At that stage I was homeless and told that it is very rare that anyone escapes a section 3.  What it should indicate is that I have been extremely bullied.  Again there is more bullshit, on reasons 3 of the tribunal it mentions ‘significant inconsistencies’ – what is written is absolute bullshit.  I do not lack insight nor do I think the public are conspiring against me and I never said such as thing like “you’re next”.
I remained on section 3, under the diagnosis of ‘delusional’.
I wrote to CQC which resulted in a second opinion doctor confirming the diagnosis of PTSD.  I also made a complaint to the IPCC which so far has resulted in an officer coming out, I spoke to her – gave her some background and showed her the abuse I received.  She advised me to stay off the internet.  I showed her the text message that I received telling me that I don’t exist – again – I told the officer that I was hacked into and she said that the Police would get back to me.  The Police got back to me and proceeded to laugh it off and suggest that I need a doctor and told me to stay off the internet.  I told the officer that it has destroyed my life, he laughed it off and insisted that it hadn’t.
Whereas the lady at IPCC asked if I would like victim support.





For some strange reason he thought I was Russian.
I feel that what has happened to me is unjust and criminal and the only ‘support’ I have had is getting called ‘delusional’ with injections forcibly.   It has made me physically sick.
I also find it surprising that the longest I have spent talking to a consultant was the second opinion doctor.  I spoke to her for two hours which is more than I’ve spoken to anyone over the past two years. 
I reject the diagnosis of ‘persistant delusional disorder’, I have PTSD which has been confirmed by the second opinion psychiatrist as part of the ‘investigation’, as well as my GP.  In regards to ‘delusional for other reasons’ – I have showed evidence of the abuse I have received and instances of being excluded from the internet.
Upon seeing all the bullshit written at the Tribunal my solicitor advised me not to talk to them (as they have the tendency to make shit up) and advised to get an independent psychiatrist – which I have done.

I’m also attempting to put together facts and information for the ombudsman.

My blog that I kept, I wrote a book/victim impact statement and also using images:

Chapter 10 and 11 includes the section.
There is also a page called ‘Random Pictures’ which is my way of describing events as they happened and where I was that coincided with the victim impact statement/leveson/media  etc etc
Please mind the swearing.

I have attached the notes:





























I appreciate it’s very long however I am unable to break it down into a couple of paragraphs. 

Thank you

Michelle Johnstone








I could not walk, even now it is very stiff, achy and has not been diagnosed with anything. 
I was completely traumatised by the whole experience.  Also in a state of shock where it was forced on me to defend myself for what other people have done to me, and also saying over again “I didn’t say that” - also being in a situation where you have to prove who you are and the staff behaved in such a manner that is derogatory and degrading.  What I have said is what has happened to me is a crime and I have been intentionally screwed over.  They did not help me with benefits or anything like that – just wanted to inject me with a drug for a disorder I don’t have.
I lost the ability to talk.  It has been extremely traumatic and to have just laughed off and called a fabrication & delusional is just beyond comprehension.  They said that I lack insight into my mental health problem – they failed to listen as I have repeatedly said that I have PTSD however the consultants refuse to accept this and again – fob it off as it seems far more easier to call a victim delusional and fabricate what was said on psychiatric reports.  It was then that I was evicted and was subsequently sectioned again.  All my household belongings were in the street when I got detained/sectioned, most of which got stolen and I had no one to help me store anything.  I wasn’t allowed out of the hospital and Slippers Hill arranged storage approximately a week/ two weeks later.
The second section was the same thing as before – not PTSD, delusional and the fictional argument about ‘free food’ kept reoccurring.  There has *never* been any argument about ‘free food’ nor did any assault happen.  I have been hacked into.  I am in fact – a victim – however getting/got treated worse than a criminal.  I had not been treated for shock, stress or anxiety but rather contend with the flippant attitude towards me and my life – which they insisted was a fabrication and delusional.

The report from Aston Ward Admission Summary & Discharge Care plan (1), most of which is written is – bullshit. 
It states that I refused to engage however the consultants refused to listen and I am not delusional – my brother and the events that occurred in 1990 – are not fictional, having spent a very traumatic month inside a psychiatric unit having to explain yourself when you didn’t say anything about yourself and anything you do say is considered to be delusional.  It was detrimental to my health.  How on earth do you have a conversation with anyone after that?  It also states that she presented with thought disorder and was expressing paranoid and persecutory delusional beliefs.  It’s fact, I have kept evidence of the abuse that I have received.  My bothers murder turned into a debate and while I have been intentionally isolated online it has been an opportunity to take advantage and exploit.   
The mental State on Admission:
Bullshit.  Points: no ‘flights of ideas’, yes I am a victim of extremism and yes I have been ostracised.  Yes I have suffered police brutality and I have stated that I received a text telling me that I don’t exist.  I have PTSD, been through an extremely traumatic time in 1990 that has been amplified by the treatment that I have received over the duration of the past several years.  I have stated that they were skinheads (the consultant must be confused as skinheads and Nazis, they are the same thing with the same ideology) and I have said that I have written about my life.  I did not make any accusations that David Cameron, Ed Miliband, UKIP, and John Key (PM of NZ) plaigurised it.  I stated I dreamt about my brothers death – this seemed to be an excuse to pass it off as fictional.  I mentioned the massacre – which what is written is again incorrect – it happened in the 1990’s not the 1980’s as suggested.  I told them about the gang rape incident again – they suggested was fictional and I categorically DO NOT call a massacre as a ‘cascade of murders’.
Treatment & progress:
It states that I presented the same delusional beliefs and was hostile and paranoid about the staff on the ward.  Facts don’t change whatever they inject me with as they refuse to listen and make shit up.  I was sectioned under 3 as I was ‘vulnerable’, I attempted to show the lady who put me on a section 3 the abuse that I had received on social media and she said “I don’t want to look at that it’s too disturbing for me”.  It was very difficult to have an intelligent conversation with individuals and professionals who pass you off as being delusional and be very patronising and flippant while seemingly misuse the term ‘delusional’ and ‘psychotic’.
It also states that hardly any improvement was noted in my ‘mental state’ and therefore they changed the medication and increased it.  Still saying the same thing – so ‘Persistent Delusional Disorder’ – increasing the medication, ‘sexing’ up psychiatric reports is falsifying documents until she stops saying the same thing?  It states that I have been adamant that I have PTSD however the consultants refuse to listen.  Facts don’t change – whatever they inject me with.
It is a misdiagnosis – which has destroyed my life however it has been intentionally destroyed.
It states on paper 2 that ‘Michelle has an established diagnosis of persistent delusional disorder’  - facts don’t change.  It also states other bullshit such as ‘Milley Dawler hacked into my phone, showed picture of Princess Diana and a New Zealand prime minister whom she blamed for Diana’s murder and other points of delusional reference’.  No.  What bullshit.  How on earth can you have an intelligent conversation with someone when what is written is a total fabrication.
I had a tribunal while on the section 3 at Aston Ward.  It made me laugh when I seen what was written, the solicitor only wanted to see a picture of me dressed as an extra on Pirates of the Caribbean as – people find it difficult to comprehend who I’ve met.  I had an interview prior to the tribunal by a woman who appeared not to understand English and confuse matters.  When in the tribunal room one of the judges asked me about my brother and our upbringing and I told him and it was a basic ‘well, yeah – why do they not believe you’ type thing.  At that stage I was homeless and told that it is very rare that anyone escapes a section 3.  What it should indicate is that I have been extremely bullied.  Again there is more bullshit, on reasons 3 of the tribunal it mentions ‘significant inconsistencies’ – what is written is absolute bullshit.  I do not lack insight nor do I think the public are conspiring against me and I never said such as thing like “you’re next”.  So all this fabricated information is coming from where?  Because it certainly didn’t come from me.
I remained on section 3, under the diagnosis of ‘delusional’.
'Planes falling out of the sky' and Putin and Obama flying over the star wars set is something I would find very difficult saying with a straight face.  As I have said, I am a victim of seriously extreme violent crime, was an extra, and 'black magic' - well they must be referring to media hacking, media intrusion, media meddling and the reason why the leveson inquiry should be reinstated.  As well as the incidents with MH370 and MH17.  I have stated to the police that I am a victim of hacking, the Sun newspaper and the dailymail hacked into my pc which wasn't taken seriously and treated as a joke.
I wrote to CQC which resulted in a second opinion doctor confirming the diagnosis of PTSD.  I also made a complaint to the IPCC which so far has resulted in an officer coming out, I spoke to her – gave her some background and showed her the abuse I received.  She advised me to stay off the internet.  I showed her the text message that I received telling me that I don’t exist – again – I told the officer that I was hacked into and she said that the Police would get back to me.  The Police got back to me and proceeded to laugh it off and suggest that I need a doctor and told me to stay off the internet.  I told the officer that it has destroyed my life, he laughed it off and insisted that it hadn’t.
Whereas the lady at IPCC asked if I would like victim support.
As a result of the seemingly intentional misdiagnosis and having – under force – been given the wrong treatment my symptoms of PTSD have been amplified and the experience has re-traumatised me.   It’s resulted in more trauma for myself, added on to the old trauma and thus generating new trauma.  This is psychologically damaging and scarring.  It has left me unable to talk, socialise and everyday life is extremely difficult, the people that are in a position of trust have abused that trust grossly.
The second opinion psychiatrist offered to suggest some medication to help me with my symptoms however has not come to pass.  Even then there is confusion as I was being injected for being ‘delusional’ with ‘thought disorder’ and the drug was for delusional thoughts, it wasn’t an ‘anti-psychotic’ as suggested -  nothing to do with my symptoms of which were totally disregarded.
They also refuse to accept responsibility or acknowledge the extreme disruption and distress they have intentionally brought into my life.  I find myself struggling with the knowledge of how evil it is.
I have attempted to explain my symptoms to my GP – as the whole diagnosis was based (intentionally) on the misdiagnosis of ‘persistant delusional disorder’ and it has been an exhausting battle to get a correct diagnosis.  In saying that – it’s like my life has been on trial and I was judged by people I’ve never met, don’t know me and never asked any questions about my life other than one of the judges at the tribunal.  Ask everyone else except the victim policy.
I now find it extremely difficult talking.  It’s very exhausting.  Even more so over the last two years having been called a liar and delusional whilst the previous several years been subject to much worse.
I have requested medication to help me with my completely shattered central nervous system however it’s fallen by the wayside.
My symptoms are:
Inability to talk – it’s very exhausting, chronic fatigue, severe anxiety, social exclusion, social anxiety, social isolation, sustained and prolonged stress, extremely exhausted both physically and mentally.  Slightest provocation I start shaking and it takes ages for me to stop shaking, my whole body shakes uncontrollably.  I avoid confrontation as a priority.  Sleep disturbances.  Flashbacks.  I am a victim of alot of serious crime including fraud, illegally spying/stalking/hacking/internet exclusion/cyberbullying - police just laughed and insisted I need a doctor however evidence can be provided.  I also have panic attacks where I can’t breathe, short little wispy breathes and my body shakes uncontrollably.
I feel that what has happened to me is unjust and criminal and the only ‘support’ I have had is getting called ‘delusional’ with injections forcibly while being ganged up on, gagged and exploited.  It has made me physically sick. 
I also find it surprising that the longest I have spent talking to a consultant was the second opinion doctor.  I spoke to her for two hours which is more than I’ve spoken to anyone over the past two years.  The second opinion psychiatrist was very attentive.
PTSD has been confirmed by the second opinion psychiatrist as part of the ‘investigation’, as well as my GP.  In regards to ‘delusional for other reasons’ – I have showed evidence of the abuse I have received and instances of being excluded from the internet.
Upon seeing all the bullshit written at the Tribunal my solicitor advised me not to talk to them (as they have the tendency to make shit up) and advised to get an independent psychiatrist – which I have done.










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